I am extremely jealous whenever my boyfriend talks to other girls that i don't know or even some that i do know, and like. i am also constantly worrying that i am not attractive enough for him or at least not anymore. i have gained a lot of weight since we first knew each other but everytime i bring up that i have gained weight, he denies this. he tells me that i am beautiful all over and quite often. (but i get so jealous because i know it is impossible even when you're dating to not find other people attractive like strangers. but that is not the case for me, i hardly find other people attractive at all, all my attention is focused on him, he is the only person i find attractive.) but i am still worried that if he goes away to another college after o'level exams, he will find someone else or be unfaithful to me. i do know that he loves me very much and that he has been in love with me for a very long time maybe even all over again when we got back together five months ago.
the thing is, why i am so jealous and very possesive? =.='
seriously i've been asking to myself like all over again and yet still i dont know why.